I’m getting this weird rash on my face was it something I ate today ugh wow
My life is just a clusterfuck of anxiety and deadlines and stress
I was foolish and naive back then.
I feel like this recognition is what’s holding me back.
so i watched captain phillips with my family and at the end he is just traumatized and it breaks my heart and I want to just help him and then i realize that’s what my profession is going to entail and that means that I’m going to have to hear these heartbreaking stories that will just crush my humanity and all sanity and then I thought about my support system and how I just hope and hope that there’s a man out there that will be strong enough to take care of me while I take care of others
It seems like damaged people receive more affection than those who aren’t.
People love to be the hero, I guess.
I suppose I choose sanity over affection then.
But sometimes I wish I hadn’t.